The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle

39



Goodbye

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"I'm so sorry I couldn't show you the duck people, Mr. Wind -Up Bird!"
May Kasahara looked truly sorry.
She and I were sitting by the pond, looking at its thick cap of ice. It was a big pond,
with thousands of little cuts on its surface from ice- skate blades. May Kasahara had taken
off from work especially for me this Monday morning. I had intended to visit her on
Sunday, but a train accident had made me a day late. May Kasahara had wrapped herself
in a fur -lined coat. Her bright- blue woolen hat bore a geometrical design in white yarn
and was topped with a little pom-pom. She had knitted the hat herself, and she said she
would make one just like it for me before ne xt win ter. Her cheeks were red, her eyes as
bright and clear as the surrounding air, which made me very happy: she was only
seventeen, after all-the po tential was there for almost limitless change.
"The duck people all moved somewhere else after the pond froze over. I'm sure you
would have loved them. Come back in the spring, OK? I'll introduce you."
I smiled. I was wearing a duffle coat that was not quite warm enough, with a scarf
wrapped up to my cheeks and my hands thrust in my pockets. A deep chill ran through
the forest. Hard snow coated the ground. My sneakers were sliding all over the place. I
should have bought some kind of nonslip boots for this trip.
"So you're going to stay here a while longer?" I asked.
"I think so. I might want to go back to school after enough time goes by. Or I might
not. I don't know. I might just get married- no, not really." She smiled with a white puff
of breath. "But anyhow, I'll stay for now. I need more time to think. About what I want to
do, where I want to go. I want to take time and think about those things."
I nodded. "Maybe that's what you really ought to do," I said.
"Tell me, Mr. Wind- Up Bird, did you think about those kinds of things when you
were my age?"
"Hmm. Maybe not. I must have thought about them a little bit, but I really don't
remember thinking about things as seriously as you do. I guess I just figured if I went on
living in the usual way, things would kind of work themselves out all right. But they
didn't, did they? Unfortunately."
May Kasahara looke d me in the eye, a calm expression on her face. Then she laid her
gloved hands on her lap, one atop the other.
"So, finally, they wouldn't let Kumiko out of jail?" she asked.
"She refused to be let out," I said. "She figured she'd be mobbed. Better to stay in

jail, where she could have peace and quiet. She's not even seeing me. She doesn't want to
see anyone until everything is settled."
"When does the trial start?"
"Sometime in the spring. Kumiko is pleading guilty. She's going to ac cept the
verdict, whatever it is. It shouldn't be a long trial, and there's a good possibility of a
suspended sentence- or, at worst, a light one."
May Kasahara picked up a stone at her feet and threw it toward the middle of the
pond. It clattered across the ice to the other side.
"And you, Mr. Wind -Up Bird- you'll stay home and wait for Kumiko again?"
I nodded.
"That's good ... or is it?"
I made my own big white cloud in the cold air. "I don't know-I guess it's how we
worked things out."
It could have been a whole lot worse, I told myself.
Far off in the woods that surrounded the pond, a bird cried. I looked up and scanned
the area, but there was nothing more to hear. Nothing to see. There was only the dry,
hollow sound of a woodpecker drilling a hole in a tree trunk.
"If Kumiko and I have a child, I'm thinking of naming it Corsica," I said.
"What a neat name!" said May Kasahara.
As the two of us walked through the woods side by side, May Kasahara took off her
right glove and put her hand in my pocket. This reminded me of Kumiko. She often used
to do the same thing when we walked together in the winter, so we could share a pocket
on a cold day. I held May Kasahara's hand in my pocket. It was a small hand, and warm
as a sequestered soul.
"You know, Mr. Wind -Up Bird, everybody's going to think we're lovers."
"You may be right."
"So tell me, did you read all my letters?"
"Your letters?" I had no idea what she was talking about. "Sorry, but I've never
gotten a single letter from you. I got your address and phone number from your mother.
Which wasn't easy: I had to stretch the truth quite a bit."
"Oh, no! Where'd they all go? I must have written you five hundred letters!" May
Kasahara looked up to the heavens.



Late that afternoon, May Kasahara saw me all the way to the station. We took a bus
into town, ate pizza at a restaurant near the station, and waited for the little three- car
diesel train that finally pulled in. Two or three people stood around the big woodstove
that glowed red in the waiting room, but the two of us stayed out on the platform in the
cold. A clear, hard- edged winter moon hung frozen in the sky. It was a young moon, with
a sharp curve like a Chinese sword. Beneath that moon, May Kasahara stood on tiptoe
and kissed me on the cheek. I could feel her cold, thin lips touch me where my mark had
been.
"Goodbye, Mr. Wind -Up Bird," she murmured. "Thanks for coming all the way out
here to see me."
Hands thrust deep in my pockets, I looked into her eyes. I didn't know what to say.

When the train came, she slipped her hat off, took one step back, and said to me, "If
anything ever happens to you, Mr. Wind-Up Bird, just call out to me in a really loud
voice, OK? To me and the duck people."
"Goodbye, May Kasahara," I said.



The arc of the moon stayed over my head long after the train had left the station,
appearing and disappearing each time the train rounded a curve. I kept my eyes on the
moon, and whenever that was lost to sight, I watched the lights of the little towns as they
went past the window. I thought of May Kasahara, with her blue wool hat, alone on the
bus taking her back to her factory in the hills. Then I thought of the duck people, asleep
in the grassy shadows somewhere. And finally, I thought of the world that I was heading
back to.
"Goodbye, May Kasahara," I said. Goodbye, May Kasahara: may there always be
something watching over you.
I closed my eyes and tried to sleep. But it was not until much later that I was able to
get any real sleep. In a place far away from anyone or anywhere, I drifted off for a
moment.
 

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